Why do I pray to you every single day?
Is it because I’m required to?
Is it because I’m trying to get something I want that only you can give me?
Or is it for a specific reason?
Please, give me the answer.
Am I praying because religion requires it for me to get into Heaven?
Am I praying because I have to place my hopes, wishes and dreams in you?
Am I praying because it will help me fulfill a specific purpose in my life?
I don’t know, but I hope that I can find the answer for myself.
I’ve lost my faith in religion, I hope that doesn’t offend you.
It’s just that I recognized that I can’t rely on church to get me closer to you.
There are too many rules, politics, judgement and discrimination involved within the church that make it hard to get close to you.
Please forgive me when I say that church is not the gateway to you.
Instead, I think that it’s a dangerous tool.
However, I still want to use it but with caution.
But I recognize that it’s not the answer to you.
Only my faith and relationship with you is the answer.
I hope that you’re with everyone that I care about.
I hope that you’re with everyone that has hurt me in different ways.
I hope that you’re with everyone that needs you right now.
I hope that you can give them all the strength to fight the demons that they’re dealing with that I have knowledge and little knowledge about.
I hope and pray.
As our conversation is coming to an end, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart.
I’m not ashamed of having you in my life.
You’re the one thing that has helped me believe in myself.
You taught me that hard work, patience and dedication will lead to the miracles in my life.
I thank you for the strength you’ve given me to go get my blessings that you established in my life.
Thank you for all the things you have done in my life.
And thank you for this conversation.