I’m so excited to share that I have officially published my first book on Amazon!
It’s a poetry book titled “Almost Four Months, Just a Day Off.”
More details about the book can be found through the link down below:
Almost Four Months, Just a Day Off https://a.co/d/18L8Vhi
Hardcover copies are currently the only versions I have available at the moment!
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The orange sun is shining bright in a dark world,
It’s strange to see such a thing,
Where is the moon?
Why is the orange sun front and center right now?
The heat is becoming unbearable,
There’s no reason for it to feel like summer,
I need the coolness of the night,
The soft touch of the moon,
The sun has no business in this dark world.
Why must it torment me now?
I’ve suffered too much,
I’m sweating too much,
I’m losing too much,
This world is too much for me.
I find myself in an unfamiliar city,
I ran to the city,
But maybe I should’ve just settled for the small house,
Maybe the four yellow walls could’ve protected me more,
Maybe it wouldn’t have mattered,
Maybe my fate is already sealed,
Maybe there’s just no way to avoid death itself.
I can’t run anymore,
I’m staggering and trying to stay on my feet,
But it’s impossible,
I fall down in front of an interesting building,
It’s a black cathedral,
It’s so familiar to me,
Yet unfamiliar in this dark world.
The orange sun continues to beat down on me,
While the night does nothing to stop the beating,
I’m powerless to do anything,
I’m ready for death to take me now,
The black cathedral’s bells begin to toll.
My time in this world will come to an end soon,
I just need her to seal my fate.
I hear her footsteps coming towards me,
She’s ready to end this horrific dream,
Maybe I can wake up to a better reality,
Or maybe another nightmare is in store for me,
But I’m glad I know that this is a dream,
That I struggle to escape from,
I hope this is the end,
I hope the loop of this dream is over,
I can’t take the terror and horror anymore,
I just want to wake up from this dream,
I need her to free me from this dream,
Once and for all,
Everything turns black.
I find myself lost in a forest,
I’m wearing some red sunglasses,
It’s weird seeing such a red world,
I think about taking off the red sunglasses,
But I stop myself for some reason,
And look around my environment,
But I quickly hear a storm is brewing,
It makes sense,
Light is nowhere in sight,
Thunder is getting ready to rumble loud and proud,
Letting its voice be heard,
My heart starts beating faster,
Because I’m in such a dark world,
And I can only see red around me.
Why am I wearing these red sunglasses?
Why am I lost in a forest?
I need to get out of here,
And I need to remember why I’m here.
I start wandering through the forest,
I’m walking for what feels like hours
And I’m trying to find something,
But I don’t even know what I’m searching for,
I’m lost and afraid,
The night begins to blanket the forest,
Total darkness is all around me,
But all I see is a red world.
Rain starts falling from the sky,
I need find shelter as soon as possible,
Something tells me it’s dangerous to be in this forest,
An evil is lurking in this forest,
Waiting to devour me,
Waiting to take me out,
Waiting for me in this dark world.
All of sudden,
Salvation is in front of me,
I find myself in front of a small house,
I see no door,
It looks like it only has one room,
But it has a small window,
Maybe I can get through the small window,
Maybe this is an opportunity to save myself,
And hide myself from this dark forest.
At least until the morning comes along.
Before I can do anything,
Someone comes behind me,
And stabs me on my right side,
It hurts so much,
I turn around to see who stabbed,
My heart drops when I see it’s her.
She’s the dark figure I was running away from,
She’s the reason I’m here now,
I’m struggling to move,
And she takes the red sunglasses off of me,
And stabs me again on my right side.
She smiles in delight of my pain,
And I immediately start running away from her,
But she’s not chasing me,
She’s watching me run away in fear,
She’s watching me lose so much blood,
She’s watching me die.
I put some distance between me and her,
And I get closer to the small house,
But then I notice there’s a whole city behind the house
Maybe I should keep running,
Instead of running to the small house,
But I don’t think I can make it to the city,
It’s getting harder to run and breathe,
And I just need a place to rest,
In this dark forest.
I make it to the small house,
And rush towards the small window,
It’s the only way for me to enter the house,
I look inside the house through the window,
And I see for yellow walls,
And nothing else,
I turn back around,
And see her slowly coming my way
I have to break the window,
I have to get inside for safety,
I start banging on the window,
Trying desperately to break the glass,
I’m trying not to think about the blood,
Trickling down my body,
But I can’t stop banging the window,
I have to break the glass,
This is my only opportunity to find salvation.
She’s getting closer and closer to me,
And I’m so close to breaking the glass,
I can already feel my body ready to give up,
But I still muster up the strength to keep going,
And break the glass,
I jump into the open window,
And fall to the ground,
So glad to see four yellow walls around me,
Surrounding me,
Protecting me from her and the dark forest,
Everything turns black.
The sun is slowly rising up in the sky,
A new day is finally about to start,
I’m sitting on a black boulder in a vast forest,
I look around
And admire the priceless scenery that surrounds me,
The sun is close to setting,
And it’s about to provide the blue sky with an array of colors.
A slight breeze is quietly touching me,
It means me no harm.
It’s only meant to provide me a sound mind,
I stare into the sparkling river in front of me,
The rapid flow of the river is pleasing to my ears.
My heart starts beating fast,
There’s something wrong here,
There’s something not quite right here.
This place feels all too familiar,
Yet so wrong in every way.
There’s something missing here,
Actually there’s someone missing here,
This place is deceiving me,
And I need the truth now.
Something strange starts to happen,
The river gets louder,
The breeze becomes the wind,
The branches on trees start to break and make noises,
But the sky remains the same,
The orange sun shines bright in the blue sky.
A twig breaks behind me,
And I see a woman in an all black cloak,
I can see her clearly,
She has a menacing look on her face,
And I see she has a knife in her right hand,
And shattered red sunglasses in her left hand,
When I see the sunglasses,
I instantly remember who was supposed to be with me here,
In this place.
I try to run away,
But she reaches me,
Before I can even make an attempt to escape,
And she stabs me in the stomach.
She pulls the knife out quickly,
And blood starts pouring on the ground,
I stagger backwards,
I’m struggling to breathe,
And I’m trying to comprehend this unfortunate event,
All of a sudden,
The strangest thing starts to happen,
The orange fades away,
The blue sky is covered with gray clouds,
My beautiful scenery is slowly fading away,
I’m staggering backwards,
And I fall into the river,
But then I find myself in some sort of white tub,
Everything turns white.
Until everything turns black.
I find myself trapped in a gigantic room,
Space is all around me,
But I’m surrounded by four yellow walls,
There’s no door in sight,
There’s a just small window,
I squint to see what’s out the window,
But I can only see total darkness,
I need to get a closer look out there.
I slowly get up,
But I quickly wince in pain,
I look down at my body,
And I notice I was stabbed two times on my right side.
Blood starts dripping down my body,
And I quickly apply pressure,
And I rush to the small window in front of me.
I start running towards the window,
But I notice the room feels a little smaller,
Almost like the walls are closing in,
As I get closer to the window,
I now see the walls are closing in,
I stop where I’m at,
And the walls stop closing in.
I don’t understand,
Am I just supposed to stay in this room with the yellow walls?
Am I just supposed to keep bleeding?
Am I just supposed to die here?
I don’t want to get crushed to death,
But I don’t want to bleed myself to death.
I can’t just stay here,
I would rather move forward,
I would rather go to the window.
I start running towards the window,
And the yellow walls start closing in on me.
The pain on my side is getting worse,
I’m still losing to much blood,
It’s getting harder to breathe,
I’m struggling to run towards the window,
And I want to give up,
But I’m determined to make it to the window.
By the time I make it to the small window,
The once gigantic room is now like a small bedroom,
There’s no space whatsoever,
And I have little time,
My vision is getting blurry,
I barely have the strength to stand up,
Or even open this window,
I only have one opportunity for salvation.
I try to open up the window,
But I can’t do it,
The yellow walls are getting closer to my body,
And it feels like I’m in a closet.
I start banging on the window,
Trying desperately to break the glass,
I’m making little progress with the window,
The yellow walls eventually reach my body,
And I can no escape these yellow walls.
I’m slowly getting crushed by the yellow walls,
I can hear my bones cracking,
And blood flooding out of my body,
I’m in excruciating pain,
All of sudden,
There’s a change in the window,
I look through the window,
And see a familiar, frightening woman staring at me,
Smiling in delight of my suffering,
And enjoying my demise,
Everything turns black.
I find myself in a white bath tub,
The water is running,
And the tub is only half full with water,
The water is clear,
There’s steam all around,
And I can barely see anything,
But I can tell that I’m in a bathroom,
How did I get here?
Why am I here in the first place?
I try to get out of the bath tub,
But I’m struggling to get out for some reason,
I’m actually in a little bit of pain,
I look down,
And I’m shocked to see the water is no longer clear,
It’s becoming a little red,
I’m horrified that it’s due to the blood from my own body,
My heart starts beating faster,
How did this wound suddenly appear?
How did I get stabbed in the stomach?
The water is still running,
I have to stop it from overflowing the tub.
But before I can do anything,
I hear a door slowly open,
I turn to my right,
And I see only darkness through the doorway,
No light whatsoever.
A shadow figure enters the bathroom,
It looks like it’s a woman,
But I can’t tell right away.
The pain starts to intensify,
But it feels strangely familiar.
Water and my blood overflows the bathtub,
And pour right on the floor,
It’s getting harder to breathe,
It’s getting harder to stay alive,
Death is near and very close to me.
The dark figure comes behind me,
And submerges me deep into the tub,
Water fills my lungs,
And takes over my body,
I’m drowning with no way to escape,
She has me pinned down,
I will be dead soon,
Everything turns black.
I’m losing a lot of blood,
I’m laying in a pool of my own blood,
I can’t see anything around me,
My vision is blurred,
Death is knocking on my door,
And there’s nothing I can do about it.
I’m trying to find the strength to move,
I’m trying to crawl somewhere to safety,
Because something tells me that I’m not safe.
Danger is around the corner,
Just waiting to pounce and take my life away.
I’m fearing for my life,
But I don’t remember how I got here?
Did I do something to deserve this cruel fate?
Or was I just in the wrong place at the wrong time?
I’m in desperate need for answers,
But I need to survive and escape this current unfortunate situation.
How did I get to this point?
How can I not remember?
I’m looking down at my body,
And I discover that I was stabbed three times.
Two stabs on my side,
And one stab in my stomach.
There’s no way I can move right now,
Even if I wanted to,
I would lose too much blood,
I’ve already lost too much blood anyways,
My fate has already been sealed,
All I can do is accept death with open arms.
I hear a door suddenly open behind me,
It sounds like someone in heels are walking towards me,
And I instantly remember everything.
My heart starts beating faster and faster,
And my vision is now slowing starting to fade away completely.
A dark figure stands above me,
With a bloody knife in her right hand
Although my vision is fading away,
I know who it is that’s trying to end my life,
She’s truly dark and evil,
She slowly gets on top of me,
Reaches for something in her left pocket,
I already know what she’s bringing out,
They’re the red, shattered sunglasses.
She places the red, shattered sunglasses on my face
And gets ready to plunge her knife into my chest.
Everything turns black.
I can’t believe I’m in a better place now,
I never thought I would make it to this point,
This can’t be real,
How did I make it here?
How did I endure so much?
I still don’t know,
I think I’m dreaming
And living a terrible nightmare.
How long can I enjoy this dream?
How long will I be here,
Before I have to go back?
I fear this dream will not last long,
And I will soon wake up to a harsh reality,
But I can’t deny that I’m experiencing a beautiful dream,
Full of happiness and peace at last,
I’ve been waiting patiently for this dream,
I’ll try my best not to worry so much,
I’ll try my best to enjoy this dream.
It hurts that I’m never doing enough in your eyes,
I do try my best,
But it’s never enough for you.
I’m constantly trying to get better,
I’m constantly looking for ways to improve,
But you demand immediate perfection.
You demand more from me,
I used to appreciate it,
But now it just defeats me.
Your disappointments in me take away my motivation,
They take away the joys I had in improving.
You’re not proud of me,
I’m a failure in your eyes,
You don’t even know how much that hurts me.
Maybe you don’t even care,
You just want me to be the best,
And you won’t be satisfied until I am the best.
Maybe I don’t want to be the best anymore.
It’s been exhausting for me,
And I don’t even know if it’s worth it anymore.
Maybe I should stop,
Maybe I should give up,
After all,
I’m not doing enough.
I wish I could see myself again,
I barely recognize who I am now,
I’m lost and afraid,
I’m not myself anymore.
It’s been so long since I’ve seen myself,
Where did I go?
What am I even trying to do now?
I’m trying to survive,
I’m trying to get through the days,
I’m trying to avoid new possibilities,
I’m trying to forget about enjoying life,
I hate who I’ve become,
I used to be more vibrant,
I used to be more positive,
I used to be happy,
I’m missing who I once was,
I’m missing me.
The Warfield Zone 