I remember it being hard to enjoy life,
There were even times it was moving fast,
And I wasn’t even a part of it.
I was mostly on autopilot,
Just trying to get through hard days.
I wanted to forget those days
And pretend I had little to no control over them.
I refused to find the joy and gladness of those days,
I only wanted misery,
It was a struggle to love life,
It was easy to have a negative perspective on life,
It was easy to blame the world for my problems,
It was easy to hold on to the past,
It was easy to stay in the same place,
It was easy to be on autopilot.