Every time I’m progressing,
I find that I want to revert back to you.
You’re a sweet relief,
But then I remember how toxic you are for me.
You’re a distraction for me,
You have no purpose in my life now,
You’re just a reminder that I’m weak.
It’s sad that I don’t have the will power to completely let you go.
I depend on you,
I count on you when I’m tired,
I count on you as a backup option,
I count on you when I’m afraid of what’s in front of me.
I can’t keep doing that.
I have to let go of my dependence on you,
But I can’t do it just yet.
I just try my best to resist you every day.
Maybe one day you’ll no longer be on my mind.