I thought that it would be impossible to let you go.
It’s a miracle that I was able to do so.
You always had me itching and wanting your attention and love.
You were medicine for me.
It’s a fact,
I can’t lie about that.
You were a drug that gave me a special kind of high,
Yet you were also a drug that was detrimental to my mind, body and soul.
You were a goddess in my eyes.
I worshipped you without hesitation.
I believed in you with determination,
When I should’ve known that you were a false idol.
I never had a chance,
I was lost in your trance.
I was hypnotized by your physical beauty.
I fantasized about you,
When I knew that I should’ve kept my distance.
But you would not allow it.
You depended on me.
You told me I was a comfort for you.
You told me I was reassurance for you.
You told me I was an angel to you.
You told me I was the sweetest and kindest to you.
You told me I was somebody that you could count on.
You told me I was so much for you,
Yet you were so little for me.
You were never going to let me go.
You intended to keep me as your prisoner,
But I longed for freedom.
It was tiring and exhausting to be with you.
I had to give you so much,
And you were content in giving me so little.
That was never going to change.
You envisioned a future with me.
You had these big plans and dreams for us,
But they were not meant to be.
Disappointments, heartache and hurt was our future.
You tried to tell me that things would get better between us.
You tried to tell me that you were going to change.
At that point,
I knew that they were just mere words.
I could finally tell.
You did not mean any of those words you spoke to me.
They were just lies to keep me under your spell.
I had a chance at love with you,
But I knew that it was not going to be real love.
It would have been an illusion with you.
I even had this delusion that you loved me in your own way.
Maybe I just needed to take a chance with you
And hope you would change in time.
Sadly, I could not trust in chance and hope.
I had to trust the evidence.
I had to let you go.