It hurts to see you like this,
You’re just here and not really present,
Alive but no longer there inside,
Just an empty shell,
I just miss you so much,
And it’s hard to be around you now,
I wish I could have you back,
It would be nice to have our usual talks again,
Write letters to each other again,
Listen to jazz again,
Why can’t I have those good times again?
Why can’t you come back?
Why is life much more grey without you?
Why are you gone?
I find myself in a white bath tub,
The water is running,
And the tub is only half full with water,
The water is clear,
There’s steam all around,
And I can barely see anything,
But I can tell that I’m in a bathroom,
How did I get here?
Why am I here in the first place?
I try to get out of the bath tub,
But I’m struggling to get out for some reason,
I’m actually in a little bit of pain,
I look down,
And I’m shocked to see the water is no longer clear,
It’s becoming a little red,
I’m horrified that it’s due to the blood from my own body,
My heart starts beating faster,
How did this wound suddenly appear?
How did I get stabbed in the stomach?
The water is still running,
I have to stop it from overflowing the tub.
But before I can do anything,
I hear a door slowly open,
I turn to my right,
And I see only darkness through the doorway,
No light whatsoever.
A shadow figure enters the bathroom,
It looks like it’s a woman,
But I can’t tell right away.
The pain starts to intensify,
But it feels strangely familiar.
Water and my blood overflows the bathtub,
And pour right on the floor,
It’s getting harder to breathe,
It’s getting harder to stay alive,
Death is near and very close to me.
The dark figure comes behind me,
And submerges me deep into the tub,
Water fills my lungs,
And takes over my body,
I’m drowning with no way to escape,
She has me pinned down,
I will be dead soon,
Everything turns black.
I’m losing a lot of blood,
I’m laying in a pool of my own blood,
I can’t see anything around me,
My vision is blurred,
Death is knocking on my door,
And there’s nothing I can do about it.
I’m trying to find the strength to move,
I’m trying to crawl somewhere to safety,
Because something tells me that I’m not safe.
Danger is around the corner,
Just waiting to pounce and take my life away.
I’m fearing for my life,
But I don’t remember how I got here?
Did I do something to deserve this cruel fate?
Or was I just in the wrong place at the wrong time?
I’m in desperate need for answers,
But I need to survive and escape this current unfortunate situation.
How did I get to this point?
How can I not remember?
I’m looking down at my body,
And I discover that I was stabbed three times.
Two stabs on my side,
And one stab in my stomach.
There’s no way I can move right now,
Even if I wanted to,
I would lose too much blood,
I’ve already lost too much blood anyways,
My fate has already been sealed,
All I can do is accept death with open arms.
I hear a door suddenly open behind me,
It sounds like someone in heels are walking towards me,
And I instantly remember everything.
My heart starts beating faster and faster,
And my vision is now slowing starting to fade away completely.
A dark figure stands above me,
With a bloody knife in her right hand
Although my vision is fading away,
I know who it is that’s trying to end my life,
She’s truly dark and evil,
She slowly gets on top of me,
Reaches for something in her left pocket,
I already know what she’s bringing out,
They’re the red, shattered sunglasses.
She places the red, shattered sunglasses on my face
And gets ready to plunge her knife into my chest.
Everything turns black.
I’m missing you a lot today,
I’m remembering the last time I saw you,
And it wasn’t the best experience,
You were unrecognizable,
You were breaking my heart,
You were a broken, confused version of yourself,
But it wasn’t your fault,
It was a cruel disease that murdered your sweet mind.
It was such a shame.
You had such a beautiful mind and heart,
And you were always willing to share it with me.
You shared love, wisdom and strength to me.
It was hard watching you disappear.
It’s hard not to think about you at your lowest,
But I’m trying my best to remember you at your best.
I’m trying to forget about the bad times,
I’m trying to remember the good times.
I fear that death is around the corner, but you try to assure me that I’ll be fine
Can I really trust you?
I’m not sure anymore.
Madness is creeping over my shoulders.
Darkness is facing me with a smile on its face.
Where are you at though?
Thou is everywhere, but thou is nowhere in my sight.
Maybe I’m too lost in my own thoughts.
Maybe my mind is playing evil tricks on me that I know not of.
Then again, how close am I to death?
Can you give me an answer?
Or is your silence the only answer you can give me right now?
I’m in a place that I don’t even recognize.
It’s a place that I never expected to be in but I knew of it.
How did I end up here?
I thought I did everything right, but I was wrong.
I didn’t do enough for you or even myself.
Now, my regrets torture and plague my dying soul.
I need you right now, but you’re still silent.
Death has me in my grasp, but you remain silent.
The footsteps of death itself are deafening.
There’s nowhere else for me to go.
All I can do is wait for death to introduce itself to me.
Please don’t let me die right now.
I’m not ready for what comes after.
You know that, right?
You have to know that.
Please, I need you right now.
Give me a chance to make things right in this world
Please, you have to understand.
I am dying too soon.
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