You Will Never Know

I can’t help but miss you.

I don’t know what I did or didn’t do wrong.

All I know is I long for us to be close again.

But nothing remains between us.

We put on a front by showing each other fake love in front of others.

But we know the truth.

We know that our love has run dried.

What did I do to hurt you?

Can I make things better between us?

Or has the damage already been done?

I remember the first time I saw you, and you gave me the purest smile ever.

I simply gave you my prettiest smile ever.

Was that fair to you?

I don’t know.

You seemed so sure about me.

You showed no fear, but I didn’t know.

We had just met.

How could you know how you felt about me?

Was it love at first sight?

Or was it something else?

I wish that I could ask you.

We talk and instantly connect.

You make me smile and laugh so much, and I do the same to you.

You tell me everything about you, and I listen with enjoyment.

There’s something precious about you.

I can’t help but be jealous and envious about the pureness of your heart.

Then, I wonder if I’ll corrupt you because the blackness in my heart and my blood.

It runs deep in my veins.

It’s toxic and infectious, and all I can do is worry about you.

Because I know my venom will destroy you.

I just can’t do that to you.

I know that you could be the best thing in my life.

However, I know that I could be the worst thing in your life.

You deserve someone who is flawless like you.

You deserve someone who is kind and pure like you.

You deserve someone who is perfect like you.

You don’t deserve someone like me.

You deserve only the best

I remember how hard it was to resist you the more time we spent together.

I can’t help but give you my purest smiles for your goodness, silliness and preciousness.

You made me happy on my worst days.

I could count on you to make me smile and laugh.

You were perfect in every way.

You always wanted to know more about me, but I was resistive.

I kept everything well-guarded in a prison under 24-hour surveillance.

You didn’t care though.

Instead, you always wanted to find a way in.

You wanted to find a secret passage to me, but there wasn’t one.

I had to be protective.

I had to keep my guard up because I don’t know what will happen if I let you in.

Maybe you would’ve saved me.

Or maybe you would’ve died in the process.

I couldn’t take that chance and risk hurting you.

We ended up drifting apart.

You kept your distance, and I didn’t know why you did this.

You’re still cordial with me, but you wanted nothing to do with me.

We don’t talk anymore like we used to do.

I can’t help but miss you.

Why did you stop being yourself with me?

Why do you only give me your prettiest smiles?

I only did what was best for you.

Anything more would have been futile.

You have to know that, right?

You will never know how sorry I am that I hurt you unintentionally.

You will never know that I wish that I did things differently with you.

You will never know that I was young, foolish and afraid to hurt you.

You’ll never know my personal demons and how they haunt me to this day.

You will never know.

This concludes the end of my poem titled “You Will Never Know.” I will be posting the story and meaning behind this poem tomorrow at 2:00. Be sure to like and comment your thoughts on this poem.