I Wasn’t Supposed to Notice You

You were never part of the plan, 

Especially not here of all places, 

Not between tasks and passing hours, 

Not while I was busy becoming more, 

Busy becoming someone whole on my own. 

I was focused on my work, 

Focused on my discipline, 

Focused on keeping my world small and contained, 

Devoted only to God and myself, 

Or so I told myself, 

But then you appeared. 

Glasses catching the light like a pause in time, 

Brown eyes behind the frame, 

So steady and warm, 

Curly hair framing your face, 

As if it had a mind of its own, 

You were just soft chaos impossible to ignore,  

And a thought I wasn’t meant to finish. 

Now you arrive unannounced, 

Sliding through my phone like a whisper, 

And I tell myself not to linger, 

Not to desire you more, 

Like a precious gem admired only through glass, 

But I hesitate every time our paths cross, 

Caught between restraint and want. 

You feel real in a way you shouldn’t. 

You’re not loud or demanding, 

But you’re just present, 

You’re effortless, 

And hard to resist. 

I want to admire you quietly,

From a distance I swear I’ll keep. 

I don’t want more, 

That’s the truth I repeat like a prayer. 

I only want the spell to loosen, 

For your name to stop echoing, 

In the back of my mind. 

But you’re a drug I would never touch, 

Yet I wonder about your taste, 

Whether it’s love on the tongue, 

Or a beautiful nightmare in disguise. 

I rewind and rewind, 

Lingering too long on moments, 

That were never meant for me. 

I’m praying this doesn’t deepen. 

I’m praying that I can forget you, 

But I worry that it’s too late, 

Because I’ve already noticed you, 

And now every version of forgetting,

Feels like a lie. 

I carry your shadow in the corners of my mind, 

A fleeting echo I can’t leave behind. 

A Loving Escape

I want to be a place you feel safe.

I want to be a place you call home.

I want to be considered the best place on Earth for you.

A place where you can relax your mind.

A place where I’m your peace.

Let me be a sweet dream you never want to wake up from.

A dream that takes you away from the nightmares of this world.

Let me be all that and more for you.

I want to cater to you.

I want to fulfill all your wants and needs.

I don’t want to fail you.

I want to be a place you can be yourself.

A place you can be free.

You don’t need to be scared.

I’m holding on to you and never letting go.

My love will always be here to comfort and support you.

I promise that it’s not going anywhere.

It’s here for you,

And it’s only for you.

When you feel alone,

I’ll be there for you.

When you don’t feel heard,

I’ll listen to you.

When you need encouragement,

I’ll provide it.

When you need love,

I’ll give it to you.

I want to be place full of love and kindness for you.

A place full of optimism and hope.

A place full of care and support.

I want to be that more than anything for you.

You have my word.

I want to provide you a different kind love.

A love you have never received before.

A love that you’ve been yearning and waiting for.

A love that’s a safe haven for you.

That’s all I want to do for you.

I want to love you like you’ve never been loved before.

I don’t want to give you a fairy tale love.

A love based on imagination and promising possibilities.

A love that assumes we’ll be happily ever after.

A love that is typical and practiced constantly in this world.

You don’t deserve that kind of love.

You deserve real love.

A love based on facts and evidence.

A love that never makes assumptions.

A love that is different and unique in this world

Nothing more and nothing less.

You deserve a love that is simply a loving escape.