Nightmares: My Sweet Drug

You’re a special kind of drug

Not because of your potency or taste

But because you require me to do everything

I have to help you before you ever help me

But I can’t do everything for you

I need help too

But you don’t seem to care

To be fair, I don’t dare say that it’s all your fault

I’m the one that catered to you so much, when I knew that I shouldn’t have

As a result, you developed a habit to take advantage of me

Now you’ve become a savage that mutilates me and eats away the good inside of me

Why do you do this to me after everything I’ve done for you?

You humiliate and devastate me like it’s nothing

And I can’t take it anymore

I’m tired of this long, pointless war between us

It has to come to an end, doesn’t it?

Or do you enjoy the fight?

Do you enjoy taking the light that God created inside of me?

Do you enjoy creating in me a darkness that makes me more like you?

If so, shame on you

I can’t keep playing the same game over and over again and expect different results

It’s insanity

But you don’t mind because you’re psychotic

Within you is a demonic spirit

You crave innocence and purity like an alcoholic craves alcohol

You’re not good for me

You’re the worst, but I can’t push you away

I’m used to you now

I can’t imagine life without you

You give me a special kind of high that heroine and cocaine can never give me

You always disappoint me, but I always give you another chance because you can change

I know you can’t, but I think you can

False hope is a terrible symptom of yours

That’s worse than dope itself, but I can’t help it

I’m addicted to you

I can’t help but hate and love you

My sweet drug

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