I wait patiently for my bus at an abandoned mall.
I remember my times at this abandoned yet familiar mall.
I remember the sacred moments I had with family, friends and even a girl.
I especially think about the girl and the spot we shared together.
I miss the spot.
I miss the girl.
I think about those two things too much sometimes,
When I’m at the bus stop.
I long to forget about the paradise I once had in my life.
A few drops of rain fall from a gray sky.
It adds a little more sadness into my heart.
I wonder why there can’t be more sunshine in the sky or even in my soul?
I miss the sunshine that I once had in life.
I wish for it, but it’s long gone.
It’s somewhere far away, while I’m in a place of darkness.
A place I fear that I will never escape.
Is escape possible?
As usual, I don’t have an answer.
God really does know how to create a depressing situation.
Enters the old man.
I look at the old man, and he seems sad and depressed.
He is a white man with a gray beard.
Then, I see a part of his hat that read “Vietnam” on it.
He’s a veteran, I naturally assume.
I start to feel bad for him
Because it seems like he had suppressed one too many things
That I could never imagine.
That weight of suppression has him looking down at not only the world but also himself.
He is lost and abandoned.
The old man looks at me, says hi and gives me his best smile.
I did the same thing as well.
I want to keep my distance and not talk anymore.
Nothing against him, but I’m just comfortable with silence and my own thoughts.
There’s just comfort in being alone.
People just complicate your state of mind.
However, he wants to talk some more with me.
I want to politely tell him that I don’t want to have a conversation
But then I stop myself.
I realize that maybe we both really need this conversation.
Maybe our conversation would have a purpose.
Maybe meeting each other was crafted by God.
Maybe I’m stretching, but I need to find out for myself.
Five minutes into our conversation, we’re sharing laughter and smiles.
We’re sharing our emotions and feelings.
We’re sharing anything we can.
I never expected to share so much to him.
I share so many secrets and disappointments
How could I admit and open up so much to a stranger,
When I struggle with being honest with others and myself?
He looks at me and asks me when was the last time I cried.
I tell him with ease that it’s been a long time.
Then he tells me to not be afraid to do so.
He was a soldier,
He admits that there were times that he had to cry.
Crying really helped him let go.
He pleads for me to cry when I get the opportunity.
Before I can respond, my bus arrives.
I look at him and promise that I will try.
He nods his head, smiles and thanks me for having a conversation with him.
I tell him that it was an honor.
I say goodbye to him and get on the bus.
The bus rides away from the abandoned mall.
And I leave the old man at the bus stop.
This poem is dedicated to a veteran that I had a conversation with at a bus stop two years ago. It was one of the most realest conversations I ever had with someone, and I’m so thankful and blessed for that conversation.
Happy Memorial Day.