A Necessary Nightmare

I can’t stand what you do to me.

You deceive me into believing that I’m weak.

You blind me so that I won’t see the truth.

You manipulate me into being a coward.

You discourage me from being who I am.

You decide my fate and future in this world.

 

Why do you have so much power over me?

Why do I cower in your presence?

Why do you always want to limit my potential?

Why do you want control over my life?

Why do I allow you to have control over my life?

Why will you always be in my life?

 

It’s a constant fight with you.

Sometimes I win and sometimes you win.

I wonder when the fighting will be over, but it will never be over.

We’re destined to be at each other’s throats.

We’re destined to do this forever it seems.

We’re destined to do this till the day I die.

 

I hate that you’re in my life, but I’m thankful for you.

You make me and my faith in God stronger.

You’re in my life to push me towards success.

However, you’re also trying to push me towards my fears and failures.

You’re a dangerous, but necessary evil that I need in my life.

You are a necessary nightmare.